Reaching For You.

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

oh yes, i've joined the blogging mania. weird thing is, i've always disliked blogging. i've always thought that when you have a diary, that's where you can write all that you wanna say without having people to criticise you or laugh at you. i mean a diary's supposed to be stashed away in a safe place where no one can ever read your deepest, darkest secrets right? but God proved me wrong. i love it when He proves me wrong because it reminds me that i should depend on Him and not myself or anyone else. i've learnt that blogs can spread things around and i thought "hey! that's a great way to let people know what's happening to me and how much God's been blessing me and hopefully, learn something from what i've learnt." i've been reading bobbie houston's "i'll have what she's having" and she says in one page that readers are the most blessed because they don't have to go through hell and back like the writer had to, to learn a lesson.

i've titled this blog "Reaching for You" because we need to put Jesus in mind in whatever we do and our main aim is to fulfil God's will in us, isn't it? and the song "reaching for You" has always been an inspiration to me and it's a song that describes how i feel abt God.

REACHING FOR YOU
I can't believe the way your love has got a hold on me
Each morning I wake to find You near
You lift me above my fears and set my feet on solid ground
All of my days belong to You

And I breathe in Your breath of life that fills my heart
You are my all consuming fire

I stand here before You in wide open wonder
Amazed at the glory of You
The power of Heaven revealing Your purpose in me
As I'm reaching for You

sometimes i really wonder how people manage to write such songs that just make you wanna cry and i guess that's the difference between a song that's annointed by God and one that's not. before i went for the Hillsong conference i could never write a full song somehow. it's always either the lyrics are missing or the melody's missing. sometimes even though with either components of the song, it just seems so off somehow. and there i was thinking that i didn't have it in me to write a song. but 2 weeks ago, God blessed me and He came at a time when i didn't expect it: when i was so, so tired i would just fall into deep sleep when my head touched the pillow. "cheryl, wake up! i've got something to tell you." and this lazy bum just went "now? can't You come back tomorrow? i'm dead tired and i wanna sleep." God pestered and pestered me and i was wondering what was so important that He couldn't leave it till the next day. so there i was, half asleep at 2am in the morning, poised with a pen and paper cos God said to get them. next thing i knew, a whole barrage of words filled my head and i started to write them down. "i'm done. happy now? i'm going back to sleep." and just when i was abt to conk out again, there was this melody in my head and it just wouldn't stop playing. like ok, what now? so i got up again and looked at the words i just wrote. it fitted the melody PERFECTLY. i was like "wow!!" and couldn't go back to sleep for a while cos i was busy recording the tune and putting some touches to the song. i was just so in awe of God that He was willing to use me even at a time that i wasn't willing to be used and He just blessed me so much even though i was disobedient. what wonders i can do through Him when i'm willing and obedient? He's so forgiving and full of love. so people, remain faithful and obedient to God and He will bless you beyond your imagination. Psalms 37:4 says "Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." AMEN!!!

i guess i've changed quite a bit ever since i came back from sydney. ah, that blessed, amazing trip that has helped me sit up and notice things around me and made me mature so much. how i wish i'm back in sydney! (anybody psyched up to go for next year's conference?) we were having such a great time there that we were tempted to tear up our tickets so that we didn't have to come back! haha. i learnt so much from this one experience; teamwork, attitude, leadership, musician-ship, song-writing, worshipping God in Spirit and in Truth, transitions and the importance of "new" in the church. and there's still so much more! when i was there one thing that struck me the most was the passion that the people had for God. it was astounding. they're always, ALWAYS singing and praising the Lord and they also have a passion for His people.

praising and worshipping God comes naturally now after seeing how blessed i am by God esp recently, it's like what on earth was i doing last time? some friends have commented that they've never seen me so radiant and so energetic. but that's because i'm charged up for God!!!! i remember one thing that Reinhard Bonke said. he said "don't go from place to place trying to seek for new annointings. whatever happened to the old ones?" and that's so true. i guess the reason why i'm so charged up now is because i know now what i am here to do and loving God and reading His Word each and everyday has brought new revelations to me that keeps me refreshed in the Spirit, not because i've got new annointings. Jeremiah 29:11 says " 'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.' " isn't that amazing? His Word is the Truth and from it we can glean the fact that He is holding our hand as He leads us to the Promised Land and should we fall, He will be there to pick us up. how awesome is our God. :)

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