Thursday, October 27, 2005
although this week's not over yet, it's been an interesting week, sufficient to say. many thanks to 2 special people in my life who were constantly praying and encouraging me for those hellish few days. i really appreciate it and i thank God for blessing me with you beautiful people. :)
i've been feeling pretty impatient as of late. guess it's because i barely have enough time to rest. i hardly even see my room till late at night. i've been either studying, working, practicing for the anniversary or for sunday's service spending time with friends who have been going through even more hellish days than me etc. it just kinda saps all your mental, emotional and physical energy. i was so, so drained. hence the really bad tempers and moods. apologies to those who got a taste of it. i'm usually much more tolerable i assure you. i've been praying for a heart of flesh - so that i may love God's darlings as much as He does. somehow that seems to get tougher and tougher each day. you seriously start wondering why God put such people on earth (Oh Lord, save me!). then i have to remind myself that God made each one of them in His image and likeness and i try to be more.. how to say.. cordial to them even if it means that i'm going to die from holding my tongue (keyword is try).
finally progressed from revelations to exodus. i found it quite hard to understand revelations cos i keep having a hard time picturing certain things. it's pretty scary reading that chapter cos it holds what is to come and you know that you're going to get judged on THE DAY.
how many of us are like the israelites? God brought them out of egypt, saved them from the egyptians at the red sea, blessed them with quail and bread to eat, 12 springs to drink from and 70 palm trees for shade and yet they kept grumbling and doubting that there is such an almighty God. how could they forget so quickly that God blessed them so wonderfully? how could they rail against God that they couldn't eat meat when they actually have food to eat? how many times must God prove to them and show them miracles to them before they believe?
Exodus 15: 1-18
I will sing to the Lord, for He is highly exalted. The Lord is my strength and my song; He has become my salvation. He is my God and I will praise Him, my father's God, and I will exalt Him. The Lord is a warrior; the Lord is His name. Your right hand, O Lord, was majestic in power. Your right hand, O Lord, shattered the enemy. Who among the gods is like You, O Lord? Who is like You - majestic in holiness, awesome in glory, working wonders? In Your unfailing love You will lead the people You have redeemed. In Your strength You will guide them to Your holy dwelling. You will bring them in and plant them on the mountain of Your inheritance - the place, O Lord, You made for Your dwelling, the sanctuary, O Lord, Your hands established. The Lord will reign forever and ever.
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