Thursday, November 03, 2005
these few days i've been feeling far away from God. somehow i can't seem to hear His voice as much or vision Him as clearly. i've been praying so hard for God to reveal Himself to me but He seems to have gone missing. till monday night when i went for the extended worship with my darling cell and matthew shared some things he learnt from the sisterhood of mary in australia. sometimes God hides His face from us so that we'll learn that we can't do a lot of things on our own strength but on His. and that was just the thing that i wrote in my previous entry. i can't rely on my own strength to get through the bad times but i can always rely on the Lord because nothing's impossible in His name. it's like when i quoted from exodus 15 "the Lord is my strength.. He has become my salvation.. The Lord is a warrior.. In YOUR STRENGTH.." so that's what i gotta learn. to rely more on God than myself.
Philippians 4: 13
I can do everything through Him who gives me strength.
and this morning when i was doing praying before doing my devotion, this really old song that we haven't sung in church in ages came to me:
ISN'T HE GREAT
Come to the quiet
Seek the Lord and He'll be found
as i started reading the book of joshua today, i was reminded that darlene zschech said that somehow the churches in the world tend to be moving in the same direction. and they quoted this verse alot during the conference, Joshua 1:2 "Moses my servant is dead". meaning that it's time to pass the baton to a younger generation. the joshua generation. i find it terrifying that you can't see where you're going and you don't know where you're going and that's where i have to build up my faith in God and trust in Him that He'll lead me on the path best suited to me and ultimately to Heaven.
Joshua 1: 5-9
No one will be able to stand up against you all the days of your life. As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you. Be strong and courageous, because you will lead these people to inherit a land I swore to their forefathers to give them. Be strong and very courageous. Be careful to obey all the law My servant Moses gave you; do not turn from it to the right or to the left, that you may be successful wherever you go. Do not let this Book of the Law depart from your mouth; meditate on it day and nigth, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful. Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.
do you notice that in just the first chapter of joshua, the words "be strong and courageous" is repeated a total of 4 times? hmmm..
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