Thursday, October 27, 2005
although this week's not over yet, it's been an interesting week, sufficient to say. many thanks to 2 special people in my life who were constantly praying and encouraging me for those hellish few days. i really appreciate it and i thank God for blessing me with you beautiful people. :)
i've been feeling pretty impatient as of late. guess it's because i barely have enough time to rest. i hardly even see my room till late at night. i've been either studying, working, practicing for the anniversary or for sunday's service spending time with friends who have been going through even more hellish days than me etc. it just kinda saps all your mental, emotional and physical energy. i was so, so drained. hence the really bad tempers and moods. apologies to those who got a taste of it. i'm usually much more tolerable i assure you. i've been praying for a heart of flesh - so that i may love God's darlings as much as He does. somehow that seems to get tougher and tougher each day. you seriously start wondering why God put such people on earth (Oh Lord, save me!). then i have to remind myself that God made each one of them in His image and likeness and i try to be more.. how to say.. cordial to them even if it means that i'm going to die from holding my tongue (keyword is try).
finally progressed from revelations to exodus. i found it quite hard to understand revelations cos i keep having a hard time picturing certain things. it's pretty scary reading that chapter cos it holds what is to come and you know that you're going to get judged on THE DAY.
how many of us are like the israelites? God brought them out of egypt, saved them from the egyptians at the red sea, blessed them with quail and bread to eat, 12 springs to drink from and 70 palm trees for shade and yet they kept grumbling and doubting that there is such an almighty God. how could they forget so quickly that God blessed them so wonderfully? how could they rail against God that they couldn't eat meat when they actually have food to eat? how many times must God prove to them and show them miracles to them before they believe?
Exodus 15: 1-18
I will sing to the Lord, for He is highly exalted. The Lord is my strength and my song; He has become my salvation. He is my God and I will praise Him, my father's God, and I will exalt Him. The Lord is a warrior; the Lord is His name. Your right hand, O Lord, was majestic in power. Your right hand, O Lord, shattered the enemy. Who among the gods is like You, O Lord? Who is like You - majestic in holiness, awesome in glory, working wonders? In Your unfailing love You will lead the people You have redeemed. In Your strength You will guide them to Your holy dwelling. You will bring them in and plant them on the mountain of Your inheritance - the place, O Lord, You made for Your dwelling, the sanctuary, O Lord, Your hands established. The Lord will reign forever and ever.
Left@| 10:17 PM
Thursday, October 13, 2005
i've been reading this book titled "songs of Heaven" by amanda fergusson and there are so many things to note in this book about worshipping our awesome God and writing new, revealing songs about Him. i remember that one of the first few Christian books i actually finished reading was darlene zschech's extravagant worship and i normally highlight the points that i feel are important in the books. after a while, i realised that 70 % of what i've been highlighting are actually verses from the Bible and that's when i really started reading my Bible in earnest. haha. so likewise from this book, a lot of verses from the Bible struck a chord in me.
Acts 17: 24 - 28
The God who made the world and everything in it is the Lord of Heaven and earth and does not live in temples built by hands. And He is not served by human hands, as if He needed anything, because He Himself gives all men life and breath and everything else. From one man He made every nation of men, that they should inhabit the whole earth; and He determined the times set for them and the exact places that they should live. God did this so that men would seek Him and perhaps reach out for Him and find Him, though He is not far from each one of us. For in Him we live and move and have our being.
after reading this verse i just stopped to think and admire our miraculous God. God doesn't want your money, neither does He want Your talent. He is the one who gave us all that. would you then want to worship your own creativity (whatever you came up with, with your creative drive and amazing talent), the created (famous celebrities, someone you idolise, money etc) or THE CREATOR, the person who created these famous people and you with your jaw-dropping talent?
John 4: 23, 24
It's who you are and the way you live that counts before God. Your worship must engage your spirit in the pursuit of truth. That's the kind of people the Father is out looking for: those who are simply and honestly themselves before Him in their worship. God is sheer being itself - Spirit. Those who worship Him must do it out of their very being, their spirits, their true selves, in adoration.
One Voice
Father I ask of You this day
Come and heal our land
Knit our hearts together
That the whole world may be seen in us
That the world may know
That Jesus Christ is Lord
Let us be one voice
That glorifies Your name
Let us be one voice
Declaring that You reign
Let us be one voice
In joy and harmony
And we pray Oh Lord
Grant us unity
Left@| 9:41 PM
Thursday, October 06, 2005
finally managed to finish bobbie houston's "i'll have what she's having" after not reading it for nearly 2 months. funny how i can finish reading storybooks in a matter of hours but it takes a month or more to finish a book like bobbie's. loads of stuff to chew and understand the contents on the book i guess. she's one mighty princess warrior for God. :) i love what she said in the last chapter of her book:
"God is life. God is colour, God is everything delightful and magnificent on the earth... The Word describes God's wisdom and life as varied, with many shades, tints, hues and colourful expressions. Our challenge is to discover, live and weave this colour-dynamic into our lives. Our challenge is then to allow the fullness of the God who lives within us to truly shine forth. In the Last Days, according to the book of Joel, He promised He would pour out His Spirit and a YOUTH GENERATION would catch fire and spread the reality of a living, dynamic and loving God."
after reading that i can't wait to see what God has in store for our generation!! :)
Psalms 34:8 "Taste and see that the Lord is good; blessed is the man who takes refuge in Him."
AMEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about YOU
It's all about YOU Jesus
I'm sorry Lord for the things I've made it
And it's all about YOU
It's all about YOU JESUS
Left@| 10:48 PM
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
when i was about to finish the book of Samuel, i prayed to God asking which book i should read next. and what i got was job, exodus then revelations. i'm really worried that God will test me like he tested job, even by using satan. but as i was doing my daily devotion yesterday i came across these verses:
Job 5: 17-21
Blessed is the man whom God corrects; so do not despise the discipline of the Almighty. For He wounds, but He also binds up; He injures, but His hands also heal. From six calamities He will rescue you; in seven no harm will befall you. In famine He will ransom you from death, and in battle from the stroke of the sword. You will be protected from the lash of the tongue, and need not fear when destruction comes.
Father, let Your will be done on earth as it is in Heaven. Who can stand against You?
2 Samuel 22: 26-33
To the faithful You show Yourself faithful, to the blameless You show Yourself blameless, to the pure You show Yourself pure, but to the crooked You show Yourself shrewd. You save the humble, but Your eyes are on the haughty to bring them low. You are my lamp, O Lord; the Lord turns my darkness into light. With Your help I can advance against a troop; with my God I can scale a wall. As for my God, His way is PERFECT; the Word of the Lord is flawless. He is a shield for all who take refuge in Him. For who is God besides the Lord? And who is the Rock except our God? It is God who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect.
SALVATION IS HERE
God above all the world in motion
God above all my hopes and fears
I don't care what the world throws at me now
It's gonna be alright
Hear the sounds of the generations
Making loud our freedom song
All in all that the world will know Your name
It's gonna be alright
Cos I know my God saved the day
And I know His Word never fails
And I know my God made a way for me
Salvation is here
Salvation is here
Salvation is here and He lives in me
Salvation is here
Salvation who died just to set me free
Salvation is here
Salvation is here and He lives in me
Salvation is here
Cos You are alive and You live in me
Left@| 11:14 PM
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